Friday, September 30, 2011

CAH-RAZY stuff going on in my life right now! And yet I am excited! God is pruning me. And for right now, I am calm and at peace, but a storm is coming. It is coming real soon; it will turn the corner any moment. But I will be okay in the end. The Father is with me.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I don't know.

How do you love a person without loving their sin? When their sin is what defines them?

I just came back from the S.H.A.D.E.S meeting. No clue what it stands for, but it basically in an LGBTQ group from people of color. I accidentally came through their meeting and I left a little early to go to the library, which is where I am at right now. I am trying to figure out how to not judge and how to love, but at the same time not condone or accept what is not right. Such a war.

Lord, help me to see them through Your Eyes. Break my heart for what breaks Yours, and may I approach every situation as Jesus would. Would You help me to LOVE those of the LGBTQ community as You do. Show me what it means to really love people, despite how they define themselves. And may I REACH out to them with the love of Christ. So help me God, may I be an instrument of Your peace and of Your love only; may I not condemn or judge. May I see them as You see them and as You see me.

Nothing is impossible for Him you know.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen so far.

But I am more than the problems I create

I try to believe that I've been given new life
But I can't shake the feeling that it's not true
I know all the answers and have rehearsed all the lines
I'll try to do better but I'm too weak to try!

But I'm more than the choices that I've made
The sum of my past mistakes
I've been remade

Not about what I've done
Not about where I've been
Not about what I feel

It's about what He did.

I am at this point in my walk where I am not enthusiastic. I'm not excited about the things that God is doing in InterVarsity, on this campus, or through me in leading small group. I've been experiencing an apathy and a despair But glory to God. He is changing that. Thank You Father for how You are speaking to me, even in this moment.

Amen.