Sweet Nothings
Sweet nothings
Those beautiful words that make me fall in love with you
Make me want to give to you
Forever and ever
Those sweet nothings
They mean everything to me
And I hold onto those words for dear life
You see
I thought I was an exception
I thought it couldn't happen to me because I'm smart
And no, even though you've never been in a relationship before
Even though you've never been truly deceived
Even though you lack experience
It won't happen to me, 'cause I'm too smart for that
Well God gave me a realtiy check
He said "You ain't no different than anyone else
Ain't any higher.
You are just as prone to fall
And until you keep your eyes on me you will always fall."
I thought I knew what I was doin'
I wouldn't fall for those empty words of "love"
Ya see 'cause me and him were best friends
Ride or die, together forever, I'll be there for you always
We would never fall, ever
But what I found out is, me and him were only "best friends"
And as I kept giving he kept taking
And you'd never think he was a damn selfish jerk at first glance
Sometimes I still question it
But deceit is not a conspicuous thing
It does not come announced
It creeps around corners and attacks you when your heart is opened
Hmmm
I remember
The "I loves yous"
The "You're beautifuls"
The "I here for you when you need mes"
But when it ended
Abruptly and for a reason true love would be able to withstand
I realized
That all of your lies
Were sweet nothings
Thank you.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Beauty and Selfworth
God, I'm distraught.
My best friend is settling for the guy that I believe you have not set for her. She thinks that I'm overacting, but I just want her to be with someone who is worthy of her. A little while ago, I came to the full realization that my best friend has low self-esteem. It never really hit me. I mean, yeah she has her low days, but I never really thought of her as having low self-esteem. That's like, a forbidden word. And it hurts me a lot, 'cause she built me up so much. She's supposed to be the strong one. God, I think you're putting me through a trial as well. I can't do everything. No matter what I say, it's not helping. Maybe I said to much, maybe I was too harsh. Now she thinks that I'm disappointed in her. I'm not, I'm just...sad. I'm really sad for her. I would hate for her to regret her decision later in life (if they got married) and for her to wish that she had just waited on God. But man, waiting on You is worth it! God, show her! You will reward her for her faithfulness, teach her to be faithful. Speak to her God, really speak to her. I mean, maybe I am blowing things up. He's a Christian, but he's selfish and sarcastic, and that's cool and all, You're still working on him. But man, he's not for her! If she just trusts and waits You will give her the man of her dreams. Man God, I'm so hurt by the fact that she thinks she can't do better. She doesn't think she's all that pretty, that she doesn't fit the "male-attraction" quotient. Which is bull, 'cause she has a beautiful spirit and a gorgeous face. And she's got meat to her, but she's not obese, and so what if she was? She says that I'm like those American Idol families who tell their relatives that they can sing. I said, "I'm not lying to you." She says those people are not lying either, they truly believe that their relative can sing. That stung me; my point of view is subjective so it doesn't count. She's basing her beauty on male preference and that really pisses me off. And this sounds cliche, but beauty is really only skin deep:
The phrase refers to the outward beauty of a person. Of course, we must realise that a person can be beautiful on the inside. Such a person is often referred to as a 'lovely' person. However, when we refer to something beautiful we are usually referring to that something's outward appearance. What the phrase tries to emphasise is that the outward appearance of a person counts for nothing, but it is what lies beneath the skin, the actual person him/herself is what really matters. I believe the underlying message of this saying is completely true (http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_does_'beauty_is_only_skin_deep'_mean).
My bf is beautiful just 'cause You made her and even more admirable because she chose to live her life serving You. God don't like ugly, so He didn't create it.
Ugh, God, I'm handing this over to You. I can do nothing. I'm leaving it all in Your hands. I know that you hear me.
Amen.
My best friend is settling for the guy that I believe you have not set for her. She thinks that I'm overacting, but I just want her to be with someone who is worthy of her. A little while ago, I came to the full realization that my best friend has low self-esteem. It never really hit me. I mean, yeah she has her low days, but I never really thought of her as having low self-esteem. That's like, a forbidden word. And it hurts me a lot, 'cause she built me up so much. She's supposed to be the strong one. God, I think you're putting me through a trial as well. I can't do everything. No matter what I say, it's not helping. Maybe I said to much, maybe I was too harsh. Now she thinks that I'm disappointed in her. I'm not, I'm just...sad. I'm really sad for her. I would hate for her to regret her decision later in life (if they got married) and for her to wish that she had just waited on God. But man, waiting on You is worth it! God, show her! You will reward her for her faithfulness, teach her to be faithful. Speak to her God, really speak to her. I mean, maybe I am blowing things up. He's a Christian, but he's selfish and sarcastic, and that's cool and all, You're still working on him. But man, he's not for her! If she just trusts and waits You will give her the man of her dreams. Man God, I'm so hurt by the fact that she thinks she can't do better. She doesn't think she's all that pretty, that she doesn't fit the "male-attraction" quotient. Which is bull, 'cause she has a beautiful spirit and a gorgeous face. And she's got meat to her, but she's not obese, and so what if she was? She says that I'm like those American Idol families who tell their relatives that they can sing. I said, "I'm not lying to you." She says those people are not lying either, they truly believe that their relative can sing. That stung me; my point of view is subjective so it doesn't count. She's basing her beauty on male preference and that really pisses me off. And this sounds cliche, but beauty is really only skin deep:
The phrase refers to the outward beauty of a person. Of course, we must realise that a person can be beautiful on the inside. Such a person is often referred to as a 'lovely' person. However, when we refer to something beautiful we are usually referring to that something's outward appearance. What the phrase tries to emphasise is that the outward appearance of a person counts for nothing, but it is what lies beneath the skin, the actual person him/herself is what really matters. I believe the underlying message of this saying is completely true (http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_does_'beauty_is_only_skin_deep'_mean).
My bf is beautiful just 'cause You made her and even more admirable because she chose to live her life serving You. God don't like ugly, so He didn't create it.
Ugh, God, I'm handing this over to You. I can do nothing. I'm leaving it all in Your hands. I know that you hear me.
Amen.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I Am Evil
God, there's something You're gonna have to do for me. You're gonna have to humble me. 'Cause I'm still a bit confused. Enlighten me. I think the part of me that's human, like, the worldly part, is rising in me. Making herself known. The part that's like "Who is God? It's all about Man." I think I'm reverting back to that mentality that says "It's all about me." I mean, that's not even the main issue. I think the revival of my rebellious spirit/thoughts is the yesterday's revelation at Bible Study that I'm inherently evil. Romans 3:10-18 says:
As it is written
There is no righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God.
All have turned away,they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.
Their throats are open graves; their tongues practice deceit. The poison of vipers is on their lips.
Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.
Their feet are swift to shed blood; ruin and misery mark their ways, and the way of peace they do not know. There is no fear of God before their eyes.
So, there is no good in me whatsoever. That's hard to believe. I mean, I know that humans think evil thoughts and do evil things, but does that mean we're evil by nature. Okay, I see how that is. You do evil things, you are an evil person. But, to group all of mankind under that umbrella? Like, I do not wish to slander or shed blood. I like peace and doing good. Like, I do bad things, but does that make me bad by nature? I thought that humans were inherently good but just not perfect. That we slip up. But it's quite difficult for me to accept that I am evil naturally. That is a strong adjective. Like, Satan status.
There were just so many questions that emerged after Bible Study. And so many weird feelings. Like, it's like Jesus is the white man that came to Africa to free us from our savagery. Almost like that. I mean, I what's so hard to accept is the fact that I am literally nothing without God. Nothing. Humans think they are the stuff, so when we hear that we are not in control/when we are called to relinquish it, it's like "No way." I don't know. I think I think I'm bigger than I am. But in a society that all about being the best that you can be, it's hard not to get gassed and feel like you've got control when you accomplish something. I dunno, it's all just so weird.
Going through this whole thought process, there's two sides of me. The side that loves God and wants to praise and worship Him, and the side that is confused and clings to worldly thought and logic. The latter part of me was explaining to my sister that the whole Christianity thing seems like a demotion. Like, a step down. I can't take care of myself or live for myself, so I have to give over my control to some being and bow down and worship this being. Then my sister says tho me that if I created myself, I could have chosen whomever I want to worship. But God is the one who created me. I didn't ask to be called into being, did not choose who my parents would be, my brothers, hair color, skin tone, the number of hairs on my head, none of it. It was all God. But then, I don't get why I am evil since God created me. My sis compared us to computers, how we create them, but they still get viruses. They have glitches. She that Satan represents the glitches in humans. But 1) Comps. are man-made and men are not perfect so the comps. are not perfect. 2) God is perfect, so shouldn't what He made be perfect? Maybe it's free-will. Like, God gave us free will so that there would be a chance for greater and deeper love. But He knew that that would come at a high price. That evil would be a side effect. Hmmmmm... I need to meditate on the Word. More to follow later.
~Janell
As it is written
There is no righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God.
All have turned away,they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.
Their throats are open graves; their tongues practice deceit. The poison of vipers is on their lips.
Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.
Their feet are swift to shed blood; ruin and misery mark their ways, and the way of peace they do not know. There is no fear of God before their eyes.
So, there is no good in me whatsoever. That's hard to believe. I mean, I know that humans think evil thoughts and do evil things, but does that mean we're evil by nature. Okay, I see how that is. You do evil things, you are an evil person. But, to group all of mankind under that umbrella? Like, I do not wish to slander or shed blood. I like peace and doing good. Like, I do bad things, but does that make me bad by nature? I thought that humans were inherently good but just not perfect. That we slip up. But it's quite difficult for me to accept that I am evil naturally. That is a strong adjective. Like, Satan status.
There were just so many questions that emerged after Bible Study. And so many weird feelings. Like, it's like Jesus is the white man that came to Africa to free us from our savagery. Almost like that. I mean, I what's so hard to accept is the fact that I am literally nothing without God. Nothing. Humans think they are the stuff, so when we hear that we are not in control/when we are called to relinquish it, it's like "No way." I don't know. I think I think I'm bigger than I am. But in a society that all about being the best that you can be, it's hard not to get gassed and feel like you've got control when you accomplish something. I dunno, it's all just so weird.
Going through this whole thought process, there's two sides of me. The side that loves God and wants to praise and worship Him, and the side that is confused and clings to worldly thought and logic. The latter part of me was explaining to my sister that the whole Christianity thing seems like a demotion. Like, a step down. I can't take care of myself or live for myself, so I have to give over my control to some being and bow down and worship this being. Then my sister says tho me that if I created myself, I could have chosen whomever I want to worship. But God is the one who created me. I didn't ask to be called into being, did not choose who my parents would be, my brothers, hair color, skin tone, the number of hairs on my head, none of it. It was all God. But then, I don't get why I am evil since God created me. My sis compared us to computers, how we create them, but they still get viruses. They have glitches. She that Satan represents the glitches in humans. But 1) Comps. are man-made and men are not perfect so the comps. are not perfect. 2) God is perfect, so shouldn't what He made be perfect? Maybe it's free-will. Like, God gave us free will so that there would be a chance for greater and deeper love. But He knew that that would come at a high price. That evil would be a side effect. Hmmmmm... I need to meditate on the Word. More to follow later.
~Janell
Saturday, August 15, 2009
IMs w/ Ogo & Darren
Ogochukwu Bizzy-Bo..."What is love? Love is life, love is pain, love is everything, including rain. Love is hard, love is sweet, love is everything in your dreams"- {O-E}about an hour ago
Yesterday
11:27pmOgochukwu
wow, ur upset, broken, hurt, and angry......whos to blame?
11:28pmJanell
No one's really to blame, today just really is not my day
But NJ is to blame too
11:29pmOgochukwu
ahh i c. well then be glad its almost ovr....wht he do?
11:29pmJanell
BROKE MY BIKE!
Rode it for the first time in forever on Wednesday, it's Friday and he already broke it -_-
11:30pmOgochukwu
ahhh...that explains y he said hes never riding bikes again. lmao.
how long u had it?
11:31pmJanell
It was Nicky then mines, but it's in good condition. It really hasn't been used that often
11:32pmOgochukwu
ahhh. i c. well then go brake nj.
11:33pmJanell
Tch, I WISH I could do that
11:33pmOgochukwu
lol, if only
11:34pmJanell
But I'm gonna be a good little Christian girl and I'm going to forgive him -___-
11:35pmOgochukwu
ahh so nice of u.....i kno i wouldnt...for a while at least
11:35pm (status)
Ogochukwu "What is love? Love is life, love is pain, love is everything, including rain. Love is hard, love is sweet, love is everything in your dreams"- {O-E}
11:36pmJanell
Normally, I wouldn't either, but I'm just tired of being mad
11:39pmOgochukwu
hmmm....well that wouldnt work for me. ive worked so hard to not get mad for so long that when i do get mad, i stay mad for quite a while.
11:41pmJanell
Other way around for me. I get mad too easily, like, really heated, and then it goes away after awhile.
11:56pmOgochukwu
noo....that used to be me...its taken me a good many years practice to learn patience and just let the little things go. otherwise, i would either be a bully, or be figting everyday.
Today
12:03amJanell
You used to fight and/or bully people?
12:22amOgochukwu
no....yes....when i was younger i always started fights/arguments cuzz of my temper. but i learned t ocontrol it...which is y i dont like getting angry, cuzz its like all the anger thats pent up inside gets released at once when i get angry
12:29amJanell
Yeah, I know what that's like. I got this anger bank and every time I get angry, more anger gets deposited. So when I get really pissed, the anger demon comes out.
12:31amOgochukwu
yea, thats it in a nutshell...only mine is like 10x worse cuzz it hasnt been relaesed in so long (at least not fully) that im afraid of lettig it out, so it just keeps on piling.
12:32amOgochukwu
thats y the gym was my home away from home for a while, i ould destress there...but havet been there in a while...planning on taking up martial arts to make up /replace that. get my ass kicked a bit, then kick ass alot.
12:33amJanell
lol! Kewlies. I'm taking some fighting classes too, gonna be a street fighter xD
But it's cool that you have control over your anger. Awed at how patient you were during that whole dog episode xD
12:34amOgochukwu
lol. good luck. i just need something that takes my mind away from things while giving me somehing i can actually use in life at the same time.
12:36amOgochukwu
omg u have no idea how much patience that took for me not to walk away within minutes of us stopping at the car wash..i mean we were there for almost an hr, so u can imagine.
12:36amJanell
laugh out loud!
Nicky says hi btw
12:37amOgochukwu
nowadays, the best teltale signs that im mad are: i stop talking or responding to someone, i laugh at things that arent really funny just so i wont get mad, i just smile and agree with what someone says as a wau yo not get into an argument and get mad as a result.
lol. HI NIKIIII> WHTS UP?
12:40amJanell
I think my new thing is that I start singing. Most of the time I'll just leave or argue. Yeah, no patience here
And Nicky says "I'm fine I guess"
12:42amOgochukwu
lol. yea.....singing wouldnt cut it for me, and alot of times, leaving isnt an option...especially at my job...damn those custmers test my patience just about everyday .
tell nikki i said, why is she guessing and that she should get facebook.
12:45amJanell
Yeah...couldn't work with people constantly like that, at least not at this stage of life.
And Nicky said she's considering getting a FB and she's good now
12:47amOgochukwu
frowning @ "considering"
12:48amJanell
lolz, she'll get one
I'll make sure
ooo, leave a work spot open for Sept. 19th
12:49amOgochukwu
its not the pople....i learned how to deal with them and how to deal with them already (shoot agter almost two years id better)...is the STUPID IDIOTIC CRAZY ANNOYING, customers thats the problem
12:49amJanell
Yeah, I mean thtem
meant* them
I'd rather shelve books
12:50amOgochukwu
what day is that? and why.
mm books...idk, i h8 those customers almost as much as i h8 doing something thats so boring like shelving books...
12:51amJanell
It's fun! Putting things in order xD
And my bro is having a cookout for his business and people are allowed to bring friends
I'm giving you MAD notice
12:54amOgochukwu
which bro is this?
ahh nvm i kno..its the one i met like nevertimes b4 lol
12:54amJanell
My older, 30-year-old bro.
12:55amOgochukwu
mm i c. where is it being held?
12:55amJanell
lolz, well you can meet him the Sat, sept. 19 when you WON'T work with annoying customers xD
New Rochelle
Glen Island Park
12:56amOgochukwu
ill put it in my phone and try to get the say off when i get to work tommorow..but u should remind me agin like 2 weeks or so b4 the day.
12:57amJanell
kk
Yay! I get to see Ogo again before he ages like 30 more years! xD
12:58amOgochukwu
lmao! i havent even aged 2 years
12:59amJanell
But it been a long time. It's like, stop by, say hi, then leave.
12:59amOgochukwu
although ill be close since my birthday is like a week and a half after that.
12:59amJanell
You're gonna be...21?
12:59amOgochukwu
lol. im a busy man.
and no ill bedouble duces
1:00amJanell
EWWW! GROSS!
1:00amOgochukwu
lol. thats a new eaction to being a year older lol
1:00amJanell
yUCKY! : - PPPP
Lol, you're getttinngggg oooooooollllllllddddddddd
22? Yeah, it's def. been like forever
1:01amOgochukwu
nah, not even close. when i h t my 30s then u can start calling me old...till then im just aging
lol no it hasnt. it hasnt even been a full year since i left
1:02amJanell
ugh, such dreaded words! aging and 30
Yeah, yeah
But this is how it goes
1:02amOgochukwu
yes and ull be doing both aging and turning 30
1:03amJanell
Pssshhhh naaawwww
I am aaaageless
1:08amJanell
Talk to you soon Ogo, gonna go bikeriding in the morning
Damnit, nvm my bike in broken -______-
1:11amOgochukwu
LMFAO!!! sorry i shouldt have laughed lol.
good night
1:12amJanell
Nighterz grandpa! :p
1:13amOgochukwu
:)
Darren Dawkins
12:47amDarren
hey u ok?
12:47amJanell
Yeah...today's just not my day
Well, yesterday
12:48amDarren
o what happened?
12:50amJanell
Bunch of stuff
Missed stuff, stuuf didn't happen, didn't get to go to stuff
My brother broke the bike I JUST got fixed >0
12:52amJanell
Anyway, I'll be good, I'll just sing Jesus songs
12:53amDarren
o ok
i hope u feel better
12:53amJanell
Thanks D! :)
Didja get my voicemail?
12:54amDarren
voicemail ?
o my fone was off
12:54amJanell
Oh I see
12:54amDarren
what happened?
12:54amJanell
Can you come 2 the show 2morrow?
12:55amDarren
na i hafta go wit my dad 2morrow see if i can get my sweater im sorry
the school sweater
12:56amJanell
Ish okay. Have fun with your Dad :)
12:56amDarren
lol fun with my dad thats funny
have fun at the show sorry again that i cant make it
12:58amJanell
Don't worry about it. If you want, you can go Sunday, but that's up to you
12:59amDarren
o ok
so janell hows it been going lately
1:00amJanell
It's been cool and sad at the same time xD
1:02amDarren
o
1:03amJanell
How 'bout you man?
1:04amDarren
im gud chilling
1:04amJanell
Sweet, that's what you should be doing
You should come to band camp
We def. have guitarists there
1:06amDarren
o shit i forgot all about it
1:06amJanell
lol!
Come Monday, 9:30
D, gotta go, my Dad needs the comp
Ttyl!
Yesterday
11:27pmOgochukwu
wow, ur upset, broken, hurt, and angry......whos to blame?
11:28pmJanell
No one's really to blame, today just really is not my day
But NJ is to blame too
11:29pmOgochukwu
ahh i c. well then be glad its almost ovr....wht he do?
11:29pmJanell
BROKE MY BIKE!
Rode it for the first time in forever on Wednesday, it's Friday and he already broke it -_-
11:30pmOgochukwu
ahhh...that explains y he said hes never riding bikes again. lmao.
how long u had it?
11:31pmJanell
It was Nicky then mines, but it's in good condition. It really hasn't been used that often
11:32pmOgochukwu
ahhh. i c. well then go brake nj.
11:33pmJanell
Tch, I WISH I could do that
11:33pmOgochukwu
lol, if only
11:34pmJanell
But I'm gonna be a good little Christian girl and I'm going to forgive him -___-
11:35pmOgochukwu
ahh so nice of u.....i kno i wouldnt...for a while at least
11:35pm (status)
Ogochukwu "What is love? Love is life, love is pain, love is everything, including rain. Love is hard, love is sweet, love is everything in your dreams"- {O-E}
11:36pmJanell
Normally, I wouldn't either, but I'm just tired of being mad
11:39pmOgochukwu
hmmm....well that wouldnt work for me. ive worked so hard to not get mad for so long that when i do get mad, i stay mad for quite a while.
11:41pmJanell
Other way around for me. I get mad too easily, like, really heated, and then it goes away after awhile.
11:56pmOgochukwu
noo....that used to be me...its taken me a good many years practice to learn patience and just let the little things go. otherwise, i would either be a bully, or be figting everyday.
Today
12:03amJanell
You used to fight and/or bully people?
12:22amOgochukwu
no....yes....when i was younger i always started fights/arguments cuzz of my temper. but i learned t ocontrol it...which is y i dont like getting angry, cuzz its like all the anger thats pent up inside gets released at once when i get angry
12:29amJanell
Yeah, I know what that's like. I got this anger bank and every time I get angry, more anger gets deposited. So when I get really pissed, the anger demon comes out.
12:31amOgochukwu
yea, thats it in a nutshell...only mine is like 10x worse cuzz it hasnt been relaesed in so long (at least not fully) that im afraid of lettig it out, so it just keeps on piling.
12:32amOgochukwu
thats y the gym was my home away from home for a while, i ould destress there...but havet been there in a while...planning on taking up martial arts to make up /replace that. get my ass kicked a bit, then kick ass alot.
12:33amJanell
lol! Kewlies. I'm taking some fighting classes too, gonna be a street fighter xD
But it's cool that you have control over your anger. Awed at how patient you were during that whole dog episode xD
12:34amOgochukwu
lol. good luck. i just need something that takes my mind away from things while giving me somehing i can actually use in life at the same time.
12:36amOgochukwu
omg u have no idea how much patience that took for me not to walk away within minutes of us stopping at the car wash..i mean we were there for almost an hr, so u can imagine.
12:36amJanell
laugh out loud!
Nicky says hi btw
12:37amOgochukwu
nowadays, the best teltale signs that im mad are: i stop talking or responding to someone, i laugh at things that arent really funny just so i wont get mad, i just smile and agree with what someone says as a wau yo not get into an argument and get mad as a result.
lol. HI NIKIIII> WHTS UP?
12:40amJanell
I think my new thing is that I start singing. Most of the time I'll just leave or argue. Yeah, no patience here
And Nicky says "I'm fine I guess"
12:42amOgochukwu
lol. yea.....singing wouldnt cut it for me, and alot of times, leaving isnt an option...especially at my job...damn those custmers test my patience just about everyday .
tell nikki i said, why is she guessing and that she should get facebook.
12:45amJanell
Yeah...couldn't work with people constantly like that, at least not at this stage of life.
And Nicky said she's considering getting a FB and she's good now
12:47amOgochukwu
frowning @ "considering"
12:48amJanell
lolz, she'll get one
I'll make sure
ooo, leave a work spot open for Sept. 19th
12:49amOgochukwu
its not the pople....i learned how to deal with them and how to deal with them already (shoot agter almost two years id better)...is the STUPID IDIOTIC CRAZY ANNOYING, customers thats the problem
12:49amJanell
Yeah, I mean thtem
meant* them
I'd rather shelve books
12:50amOgochukwu
what day is that? and why.
mm books...idk, i h8 those customers almost as much as i h8 doing something thats so boring like shelving books...
12:51amJanell
It's fun! Putting things in order xD
And my bro is having a cookout for his business and people are allowed to bring friends
I'm giving you MAD notice
12:54amOgochukwu
which bro is this?
ahh nvm i kno..its the one i met like nevertimes b4 lol
12:54amJanell
My older, 30-year-old bro.
12:55amOgochukwu
mm i c. where is it being held?
12:55amJanell
lolz, well you can meet him the Sat, sept. 19 when you WON'T work with annoying customers xD
New Rochelle
Glen Island Park
12:56amOgochukwu
ill put it in my phone and try to get the say off when i get to work tommorow..but u should remind me agin like 2 weeks or so b4 the day.
12:57amJanell
kk
Yay! I get to see Ogo again before he ages like 30 more years! xD
12:58amOgochukwu
lmao! i havent even aged 2 years
12:59amJanell
But it been a long time. It's like, stop by, say hi, then leave.
12:59amOgochukwu
although ill be close since my birthday is like a week and a half after that.
12:59amJanell
You're gonna be...21?
12:59amOgochukwu
lol. im a busy man.
and no ill bedouble duces
1:00amJanell
EWWW! GROSS!
1:00amOgochukwu
lol. thats a new eaction to being a year older lol
1:00amJanell
yUCKY! : - PPPP
Lol, you're getttinngggg oooooooollllllllddddddddd
22? Yeah, it's def. been like forever
1:01amOgochukwu
nah, not even close. when i h t my 30s then u can start calling me old...till then im just aging
lol no it hasnt. it hasnt even been a full year since i left
1:02amJanell
ugh, such dreaded words! aging and 30
Yeah, yeah
But this is how it goes
1:02amOgochukwu
yes and ull be doing both aging and turning 30
1:03amJanell
Pssshhhh naaawwww
I am aaaageless
1:08amJanell
Talk to you soon Ogo, gonna go bikeriding in the morning
Damnit, nvm my bike in broken -______-
1:11amOgochukwu
LMFAO!!! sorry i shouldt have laughed lol.
good night
1:12amJanell
Nighterz grandpa! :p
1:13amOgochukwu
:)
Darren Dawkins
12:47amDarren
hey u ok?
12:47amJanell
Yeah...today's just not my day
Well, yesterday
12:48amDarren
o what happened?
12:50amJanell
Bunch of stuff
Missed stuff, stuuf didn't happen, didn't get to go to stuff
My brother broke the bike I JUST got fixed >0
12:52amJanell
Anyway, I'll be good, I'll just sing Jesus songs
12:53amDarren
o ok
i hope u feel better
12:53amJanell
Thanks D! :)
Didja get my voicemail?
12:54amDarren
voicemail ?
o my fone was off
12:54amJanell
Oh I see
12:54amDarren
what happened?
12:54amJanell
Can you come 2 the show 2morrow?
12:55amDarren
na i hafta go wit my dad 2morrow see if i can get my sweater im sorry
the school sweater
12:56amJanell
Ish okay. Have fun with your Dad :)
12:56amDarren
lol fun with my dad thats funny
have fun at the show sorry again that i cant make it
12:58amJanell
Don't worry about it. If you want, you can go Sunday, but that's up to you
12:59amDarren
o ok
so janell hows it been going lately
1:00amJanell
It's been cool and sad at the same time xD
1:02amDarren
o
1:03amJanell
How 'bout you man?
1:04amDarren
im gud chilling
1:04amJanell
Sweet, that's what you should be doing
You should come to band camp
We def. have guitarists there
1:06amDarren
o shit i forgot all about it
1:06amJanell
lol!
Come Monday, 9:30
D, gotta go, my Dad needs the comp
Ttyl!
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