IM with beloved Darren

Yesterday
10:44pm Janell
:P

10:44pm Darren
was rong?

10:45pm Janell
Nooothin : )

Ques:

10:45pm Darren
o

10:45pm Janell
Is this J or D?

Nvm, this is D

10:45pm Darren
yea lol my name is d

10:46pm Janell
Really?

i thoughtit was Darren 0_)

10:46pm Darren
no its darren

im just playing seeing as thou ur calling me d

10:48pm Janell
You know it's weird, as long as your name begins with D, I will call you D xD

10:48pm Darren
lol ok jan wassup?

10:50pm Janell
Nothin' much man, I'm just chillin

10:50pm Darren
o o great question hmmm

10:50pm Janell
LOL!

10:51pm Darren
yea well i could tell u now

10:52pm Darren
i have not yet have a crush on one of j's gfs its hard to when most of them praise him and stuff

10:54pm Janell
I see. That praise is in vain though, 'cause 2 secs later, another girl is i place of the last one

10:55pm Darren
wait what do u mean?

10:57pm Janell
He doesn't know that when you say you love somebody, it means also means "I'm committed to you."

He has no sense of committment at all.

10:59pm Darren
mmh

well i wouldnt say that

did u talk 2 j?

11:02pm Janell
No, I really want to though.

11:08pm Darren
o ok well what do u think about the deshana situation?

11:08pm Janell
Can we swirch this over to aim?

11:08pm Darren
r u on?

11:09pm Janell
Yes sir

blaze25629 (11:09:22 PM): so ur answer

Hinote Alchemist (11:09:36 PM): Okay, the DeShana situation I don't even know much about

Hinote Alchemist (11:09:36 PM): Okay, the DeShana situation I don't even know much
about

Hinote Alchemist (11:09:43 PM): only bits and pieces

Hinote Alchemist (11:09:55 PM): but from what I heard, J is in the wrong

Hinote Alchemist (11:10:02 PM): But I don't know his side of the story

blaze25629 (11:11:02 PM): well mabe u should talk 2 j

Hinote Alchemist (11:12:38 PM): I plan to, we just need to set a time

Hinote Alchemist (11:12:57 PM): I was gonna go to him 2morrow and ask him if he wants to do movies on Sat.

blaze25629 (11:13:36 PM): but?

Hinote Alchemist (11:14:00 PM): Oh, nothing, I'm still doing it. You guys got plans for this Sat.?

blaze25629 (11:15:31 PM): well he told me that he was going 2 flc

Hinote Alchemist (11:16:12 PM): That's Sat?

blaze25629 (11:16:25 PM): yea the 24th

Hinote Alchemist (11:16:41 PM): I'll ask anyway.

Hinote Alchemist (11:16:52 PM): I'm just upset 'cause I feel that J makes the same mistakes over again and they are SO obvious to me, but he doesn't see them.

Hinote Alchemist (11:17:03 PM): I'm just hoping really hard that when I talk to him, I find out that everything he's done was unintentional and that he was trying to hurt anybody.

Hinote Alchemist (11:17:18 PM): That he was completely oblivious and didn't know what he was doing.

blaze25629 (11:19:48 PM): well the only way u will no is if u talk 2 him

Hinote Alchemist (11:21:38 PM): I know. I have no objection. I am rearing to go. I just need to have a block of time, 'cause the conversation won't be short.

Hinote Alchemist (11:21:48 PM): Favor

blaze25629 (11:22:05 PM): 'yes

Hinote Alchemist (11:26:31 PM): Last time I wanted to talk to him, I didn't because he didn't cooperate. Like, I'd be like "Let's talk" and he'd say "Okay" and then when the time came, he'd leave and not tell and completely avoid me.

Hinote Alchemist (11:27:06 PM): So, in order for it to work this time, maybe you could encourage to talk to me. He needs to hear what I have to say.

blaze25629 (11:33:10 PM): sure

Hinote Alchemist (11:37:20 PM): Gracias.

Hinote Alchemist (11:39:10 PM): Gragh, how do you deal with J. Like, does he eveer annoy you?

blaze25629 (11:42:09 PM): well yea sometimes but its iight kuz i no he has my back

Hinote Alchemist (11:45:54 PM): Cool. Glad he cares about somebody x)

blaze25629 (11:46:17 PM): yea so what do u think of him?

Hinote Alchemist (11:49:09 PM): Umph! That's a tough one

Hinote Alchemist (11:49:12 PM): Give me a sec.

Hinote Alchemist (11:53:01 PM): I have mixed feelings. Like, I used to think he was truly awesome and a rarity, that you couldn't find many guys like him 'cause he cared about people. But then his actions contradicted that thought and I just though he was a jerk. But now, I just think he's confused. Like, he means to do well but he doesn't. I think part of the reason is 'cause he's selfish too.

Hinote Alchemist (11:54:24 PM): All in all though, I don't think he is a terrible person. He just doesn't know what he's doing. And I insult him sometimes and cut and make side comments, but truthfully I love that guy to death. He's a jerk, but I love him to death.

Hinote Alchemist (11:55:00 PM): I don't know why I care so much and it annoys the HELL out of me but I do. Oh well -_-

blaze25629 (11:56:12 PM): janell mabe u should ease ur horses before u make a judgement

blaze25629 (11:57:16 PM): remember u cant answer a question if halve of it is undone

Hinote Alchemist (11:59:59 PM): Yeah well I'm going based on observation and experience and things he's told me. I mean, I'm not saying he does things purposefully, I actually think he doesn't. There's a reason for what he does, for everything he does.

Hinote Alchemist (12:00:12 AM): Like the whole have a ton a girlfriends thing

blaze25629 (12:00:22 AM): wait janell question

Hinote Alchemist (12:00:37 AM): Yeah?

blaze25629 (12:01:00 AM): take out the whole deshana situation what do u think of him?

Hinote Alchemist (12:02:54 AM): I did take out the whole DeShana situation. I wasn't even thinking about that.I don't know the whole story. I've been wanting to talk to him since before that.

blaze25629 (12:03:23 AM): regarding ur relationship?

Hinote Alchemist (12:05:40 AM): Not just that, but that's a part of it. After the relationship is when I realized the stuff I just mentioned, but our relationship is not the only thing I'm drawing my points from. Get me?

blaze25629 (12:06:33 AM): o ok

blaze25629 (12:07:56 AM): i understand u and i guess ill explain 2 j how important this is 2 u and hopefully ya guys could talk about this

Hinote Alchemist (12:08:18 AM): Thank you so much D.

Hinote Alchemist (12:08:33 AM): I don't think I've ever told you how much I appreciate you.

Hinote Alchemist (12:09:15 AM): Like, when I was depressed and upset and crappy and sad and just a huge mess ball of emotions, you really helped me out.

blaze25629 (12:09:48 AM): im happy 2 help u i honestly am

Hinote Alchemist (12:10:07 AM): Like, I didn't feel like complete crap. It was comforting to know that someone still cared, especially you when you didm't have, seeing that you're J's best friend.

Hinote Alchemist (12:10:29 AM): Gratz! I feel the tears coming, but I won't let them out xD

Hinote Alchemist (12:12:48 AM): Oh my gosh

Hinote Alchemist (12:12:53 AM): Man

blaze25629 (12:13:03 AM): well janell its common curticy 2 help someone out when they r in a bind u no

Hinote Alchemist (12:13:30 AM): lol! I'm glad you have that philosophy. 'Cause a lot of people don't.

blaze25629 (12:16:41 AM): anyway ill ttyl k peace need 2 take my asthma meds

Hinote Alchemist (12:17:04 AM): Feel better D! I'll keep you in my prayers. See you tomorrow?

blaze25629 (12:17:30 AM): k peace

Hinote Alchemist (12:17:42 AM): Later love!

IMs w/ Ogo & Darren

Ogochukwu Bizzy-Bo..."What is love? Love is life, love is pain, love is everything, including rain. Love is hard, love is sweet, love is everything in your dreams"- {O-E}about an hour ago

Yesterday
11:27pmOgochukwu
wow, ur upset, broken, hurt, and angry......whos to blame?

11:28pmJanell
No one's really to blame, today just really is not my day

But NJ is to blame too

11:29pmOgochukwu
ahh i c. well then be glad its almost ovr....wht he do?

11:29pmJanell
BROKE MY BIKE!

Rode it for the first time in forever on Wednesday, it's Friday and he already broke it -_-

11:30pmOgochukwu
ahhh...that explains y he said hes never riding bikes again. lmao.

how long u had it?

11:31pmJanell
It was Nicky then mines, but it's in good condition. It really hasn't been used that often

11:32pmOgochukwu
ahhh. i c. well then go brake nj.

11:33pmJanell
Tch, I WISH I could do that

11:33pmOgochukwu
lol, if only

11:34pmJanell
But I'm gonna be a good little Christian girl and I'm going to forgive him -___-

11:35pmOgochukwu
ahh so nice of u.....i kno i wouldnt...for a while at least

11:35pm (status)
Ogochukwu "What is love? Love is life, love is pain, love is everything, including rain. Love is hard, love is sweet, love is everything in your dreams"- {O-E}

11:36pmJanell
Normally, I wouldn't either, but I'm just tired of being mad

11:39pmOgochukwu
hmmm....well that wouldnt work for me. ive worked so hard to not get mad for so long that when i do get mad, i stay mad for quite a while.

11:41pmJanell
Other way around for me. I get mad too easily, like, really heated, and then it goes away after awhile.

11:56pmOgochukwu
noo....that used to be me...its taken me a good many years practice to learn patience and just let the little things go. otherwise, i would either be a bully, or be figting everyday.

Today
12:03amJanell
You used to fight and/or bully people?

12:22amOgochukwu
no....yes....when i was younger i always started fights/arguments cuzz of my temper. but i learned t ocontrol it...which is y i dont like getting angry, cuzz its like all the anger thats pent up inside gets released at once when i get angry

12:29amJanell
Yeah, I know what that's like. I got this anger bank and every time I get angry, more anger gets deposited. So when I get really pissed, the anger demon comes out.

12:31amOgochukwu
yea, thats it in a nutshell...only mine is like 10x worse cuzz it hasnt been relaesed in so long (at least not fully) that im afraid of lettig it out, so it just keeps on piling.

12:32amOgochukwu
thats y the gym was my home away from home for a while, i ould destress there...but havet been there in a while...planning on taking up martial arts to make up /replace that. get my ass kicked a bit, then kick ass alot.

12:33amJanell
lol! Kewlies. I'm taking some fighting classes too, gonna be a street fighter xD

But it's cool that you have control over your anger. Awed at how patient you were during that whole dog episode xD

12:34amOgochukwu
lol. good luck. i just need something that takes my mind away from things while giving me somehing i can actually use in life at the same time.

12:36amOgochukwu
omg u have no idea how much patience that took for me not to walk away within minutes of us stopping at the car wash..i mean we were there for almost an hr, so u can imagine.

12:36amJanell
laugh out loud!

Nicky says hi btw

12:37amOgochukwu
nowadays, the best teltale signs that im mad are: i stop talking or responding to someone, i laugh at things that arent really funny just so i wont get mad, i just smile and agree with what someone says as a wau yo not get into an argument and get mad as a result.

lol. HI NIKIIII> WHTS UP?

12:40amJanell
I think my new thing is that I start singing. Most of the time I'll just leave or argue. Yeah, no patience here

And Nicky says "I'm fine I guess"

12:42amOgochukwu
lol. yea.....singing wouldnt cut it for me, and alot of times, leaving isnt an option...especially at my job...damn those custmers test my patience just about everyday .

tell nikki i said, why is she guessing and that she should get facebook.

12:45amJanell
Yeah...couldn't work with people constantly like that, at least not at this stage of life.

And Nicky said she's considering getting a FB and she's good now

12:47amOgochukwu
frowning @ "considering"

12:48amJanell
lolz, she'll get one

I'll make sure

ooo, leave a work spot open for Sept. 19th

12:49amOgochukwu
its not the pople....i learned how to deal with them and how to deal with them already (shoot agter almost two years id better)...is the STUPID IDIOTIC CRAZY ANNOYING, customers thats the problem

12:49amJanell
Yeah, I mean thtem

meant* them

I'd rather shelve books

12:50amOgochukwu
what day is that? and why.

mm books...idk, i h8 those customers almost as much as i h8 doing something thats so boring like shelving books...

12:51amJanell
It's fun! Putting things in order xD

And my bro is having a cookout for his business and people are allowed to bring friends


I'm giving you MAD notice

12:54amOgochukwu
which bro is this?

ahh nvm i kno..its the one i met like nevertimes b4 lol

12:54amJanell
My older, 30-year-old bro.

12:55amOgochukwu
mm i c. where is it being held?

12:55amJanell
lolz, well you can meet him the Sat, sept. 19 when you WON'T work with annoying customers xD

New Rochelle

Glen Island Park

12:56amOgochukwu
ill put it in my phone and try to get the say off when i get to work tommorow..but u should remind me agin like 2 weeks or so b4 the day.

12:57amJanell
kk

Yay! I get to see Ogo again before he ages like 30 more years! xD

12:58amOgochukwu
lmao! i havent even aged 2 years

12:59amJanell
But it been a long time. It's like, stop by, say hi, then leave.

12:59amOgochukwu
although ill be close since my birthday is like a week and a half after that.

12:59amJanell
You're gonna be...21?

12:59amOgochukwu
lol. im a busy man.

and no ill bedouble duces

1:00amJanell
EWWW! GROSS!

1:00amOgochukwu
lol. thats a new eaction to being a year older lol

1:00amJanell
yUCKY! : - PPPP

Lol, you're getttinngggg oooooooollllllllddddddddd

22? Yeah, it's def. been like forever

1:01amOgochukwu
nah, not even close. when i h t my 30s then u can start calling me old...till then im just aging

lol no it hasnt. it hasnt even been a full year since i left

1:02amJanell
ugh, such dreaded words! aging and 30

Yeah, yeah

But this is how it goes

1:02amOgochukwu
yes and ull be doing both aging and turning 30

1:03amJanell
Pssshhhh naaawwww

I am aaaageless

1:08amJanell
Talk to you soon Ogo, gonna go bikeriding in the morning

Damnit, nvm my bike in broken -______-

1:11amOgochukwu
LMFAO!!! sorry i shouldt have laughed lol.

good night

1:12amJanell
Nighterz grandpa! :p

1:13amOgochukwu
:)


Darren Dawkins
12:47amDarren
hey u ok?

12:47amJanell
Yeah...today's just not my day

Well, yesterday

12:48amDarren
o what happened?

12:50amJanell
Bunch of stuff

Missed stuff, stuuf didn't happen, didn't get to go to stuff

My brother broke the bike I JUST got fixed >0

12:52amJanell
Anyway, I'll be good, I'll just sing Jesus songs

12:53amDarren
o ok

i hope u feel better

12:53amJanell
Thanks D! :)

Didja get my voicemail?

12:54amDarren
voicemail ?

o my fone was off

12:54amJanell
Oh I see

12:54amDarren
what happened?

12:54amJanell
Can you come 2 the show 2morrow?

12:55amDarren
na i hafta go wit my dad 2morrow see if i can get my sweater im sorry

the school sweater

12:56amJanell
Ish okay. Have fun with your Dad :)

12:56amDarren
lol fun with my dad thats funny

have fun at the show sorry again that i cant make it

12:58amJanell
Don't worry about it. If you want, you can go Sunday, but that's up to you

12:59amDarren
o ok

so janell hows it been going lately

1:00amJanell
It's been cool and sad at the same time xD

1:02amDarren
o

1:03amJanell
How 'bout you man?

1:04amDarren
im gud chilling

1:04amJanell
Sweet, that's what you should be doing

You should come to band camp

We def. have guitarists there

1:06amDarren
o shit i forgot all about it

1:06amJanell
lol!

Come Monday, 9:30

D, gotta go, my Dad needs the comp

Ttyl!