Emotional Pit Of Yuck

There is so much anger in me right now. I'm just UPSET. I mean, not getting into my top school is already enough to deal with. But then having to go to a church that just makes me vex and then to be bugged by my parents with questions they should know the answers to already either because they are obvious or because I've repeated myself so many times, does not help my mood. I am just in an emotional pit of yuck. And it annoys me when I am trying to get over the fact that I did not get into my dream school and I get these lame words that go "blah blah blah blah blah blah something something things will work out blah blah Obama did not go to an IVY League school for his undergraduate education." I am not upset about that! Urgh, I'm going to read this a few months from now probably be like "Oh my gosh, what is/was/whatever wrong with me?" But I am in such a rage! My church home is not catered to my 17-almost-18-year-old teenage needs. I have to put on this face, this mask and I gotta be fake. I HATE IT! And to be in a rage over that on top of something which is really not making your afternoon... April Fools Day is a really bad day to find out what schools accepted you. Me especially. 18th birthday is in 2 days and I feel like CRAP. God, you are gonna have to talk to me extensively. I'm hard-headed, confused, angry, upset, lost, discouraged, all this crap. I don't know where you want me to go. The next best thing, Binghamton, is in the suburbs (YUCK!), I've never been there, I have no idea how I'll get up there-UGH! Whatever!