Prom: Not what I want it to be.

God, please help me to accept it. I will not be getting the dress of my dreams.

AAAAARRRRRGGGGGH!

Remember those dresses that Ashley gave you in EIGTH GRADE that she got for free at her church? Yeah. Mom wants me to wear one of them. It's nice, but I do not want to wear. I'd like to have options. "We can't afford it." I bet we can. It's PROM! It's not like it's an event that was sprung upon us! We've known about it since forever. "If it was the same dress in a store, you would have bought it." No I wouldn't have! Agh WOMAN! I am so upset because I was so excited and I still don't know what I'm doing after prom and I'm about to say SCREW EVERYTHING and go home and sleep and wallow in misery since we "can't afford" an after prom event anyway.

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I realize that I am not being understanding. Which is why I need your help Lord. I am so disappointed. So disappointed. And prom is next week Thursday and the my vision of what it was supposed to be will not be lived up to. I had a dream last night that I went to this pre-prom event (I think it was a prom that did NOT look like a prom. Looked more like an "Everybody-wear-overalls" event -_-) and it was LAME then I went to prom and went home but prom was not the memorable part of the evening. Prom was a blur. It was the pre-prom event that was most dominant in my mind. And if dreams tell the future, that dream is saying that prom is gonna SUCK. But I am aware that my mentality is going to determine how great of a time I will have. So God, help me tp change my mentality >.<

Okay, the bright side. The dressis pretty. I don't want to wear it because I had no options to choose from and it is not at all what I had in mind, but the dress is pretty. Ummm.... Even though I still do not know what I am doing after prom, the prom itself will be a good time and though I will be a loser for going home (that would be so lame!), I can look forward to the many late at night events I will participate in as a college student. Okay, no, that will not help. Um.... I can feel cool going home, coming out of the limo. Hmmm... no, 'cause people will be like "So early? That was dumb quick!" Ummm... I know! I can sleep and sleep in 'cause there is no school the next day. And thers'll have more money in my pocket (more like Dad's pocket -_-) that I will not have to spend on an event that I have to scurry people around to attend (I HATE doing that! >.<). And I don't have to worry about how I'm going to get home since the limo will have been long gone... Yep. I'm going home after prom -_-. Ugh.

Late night ultimate frisbee anyone? I'd be so done for that! >.<

Yeah God. So please just help me to lower my expectations and be understanding and not resentful and not sarcastic. That last one is a hard one, but You can do it! To the point wear I will not even hurt on the inside, so there will be no need for me to be sarcastic. Help me to embrace it like I embrace the fact I am not going to prom with a date (from the beginning I wanted to go single!). So yeah Lord, help me. So that I may have a memorable and yet prom experience. Amen.