Ugh...

Ugh! I feel like a bad person. My motives are wrong, I make no sense and I want to fix everybody. I just need to step back and let things take their course. You know when you do things unintentionally? Well, I did that today. I def. was bad-mouthing J and K's new relationship today. Of course it got back to him. He heard that I said his relationship won't go past a month. Whoops. I mean, I still believe it, but I guess it didn't have to be vocalized? I dunno. Anyway, I called him a little while ago to apologize, but he didn't pick up. So now this is gonna be on my conscience. Whatever. GOD! I need You. I don't want to think. Just take control, PLEASE. Give me that peace that surpasses all understanding. I don't deserve it, but I am relying on Your grace, Your favor. Lift the stress from my mind; none of this will matter in the end. It's all about Heaven and the deliverance from this crappy world.

Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say, again I say REJOICE! (Philippians 4:4)

Philippians 4:6-7
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Lord, forgive me of my sins. I took part in the gossip/slander of another person and I know that hurts You and I'm sorry. I pray that it will not be a mistake I make again. I also pray that I won't stress over anything. I can't add a day to my life by worrying and I have bigger things to take care of (i.e. college). Lord, give me the courage and strength to apologize and to do the right thing. Speak to me Lord, speak to me. Amen.