How did I get here?

I'm not who I once was.

I'm crippled by the fear

That I've fallen so far.

But I am more than the problems I create

I try to believe that I've been given new life

But I can't shake the feeling that it's not true

I know all the answers and have rehearsed all the lines

I'll try to do better but I'm too weak to try!

But I'm more than the choices that I've made

The sum of my past mistakes

I've been remade

Not about what I've done

Not about where I've been

Not about what I feel

It's about what He did.

I am at this point in my walk where I am not enthusiastic. I'm not excited about the things that God is doing in InterVarsity, on this campus, or through me in leading small group. I've been experiencing an apathy and a despair But glory to God. He is changing that. Thank You Father for how You are speaking to me, even in this moment.

Amen.