My sis and I

Wow, I haven't updated since November. I need to step up my blogging game.

So! What's new? Well, I'm a senior in high school (well that's not new), and I'm pretty much over J! lol, what a transition. He still comes into my mind every now and again though. Like, Monday coming, we would have made a year. I'm def. calling to wish his mom happy birthday xD Like really though, her birthday is Feb. 1st.

Anyway, he'll get a journal entry devoted to him on Monday x). This entry has to do with me and my sis.

So, last week Tues. or Wednesday, I said something really mean to my sis. We were watching Teen Moms on MTV or some channel like that and she was like "I could not have a child." Then I unnecessarily said, "Yeah, 'cause you still are a child." Then, even more unnecessarily, I was like "I was looking at Mr. Alfano and he's 30 and he has a wife a kid and he's a music teacher." I put 3 fingers up for the three things he was, and then put them down to signify that she did not have those things. That was so evil. I can't believe I did that.

Anyway, ever since then, we haven't really spoken. She said she forgave me, what I said is true. But what she's doing is basing her value and worth on what society says, not what God says. She doesn't think she's beautiful and I she ranks me above her. I mean it sucks because I look up to her and she's falling in my eyes. I swear, even though she's in the place where she is now, financially and stuff, if she had as much respect for herself as a lawyer does, I would look up to her so much more. It takes a strong person to hold their head up high when they are at a low point. I pray that God will open her eyes everyday. If she keeps up like this, we will surely grow distant. Please pray for her healing and the healing of our relationship.